My Girls

Ryan's Funeral at the Graveside

This was truly the hardest experience of my life. I have never hurt the way I have with the passing of Ryan. I will miss him so much - but whenever I think about Katie and losing the love of her life I start to cry because she won't be able to smell his neck, have his hand on the small of her back, hand a baby off when you have had it and all of the other everyday things I take for granted. I hope she knows how much I love her and that I would do anything for her!!! They had the girls send off balloons to Ryan. Asha kept looking into the hole and worrying about them dropping and hurting Ryan. She wondered if she should fill in the hole so he wouldn't get hurt. I am so thankful to have the knowledge that I do, for the innocence of children and that I can live with my sweet bug and muchkins forever!!!!!